Friday, March 12, 2010

A New State of Mind...

It’s true what they about having a child and how that will change your thought processes. Everything in comparison to my son is so minor! I used to be so caught up in thinking that some things were so important and that if it certain things didn’t the way I THOUGHT they should be, all would be over and the world would come crashing to an end! Of course when Dec 30, 2009 rolled around that all changed!! I remember me worrying soo much about possible resenting the fact that I couldn’t sleep as much I used to. I have to admit, it does get a little hard sometimes and yes I do miss being able to sleep in from time to time, however I don’t miss it over all. I definitely don’t resent the fact that I can’t do it anymore. I’m also amazed at my automatic response to the day to day care of Kevin. It’s like I don’t think about it…I just do it! This applies to his feedings, bathing, entertaining, nurturing, etc. Seriously, I get up no matter how tired or EXHAUSTED I may feel and do whatever needs to be done for him. The best part of it is that I LOVE doing it for him. I have yet to experience a begrudged feeling towards him when he needs me to take of him.

I guess that’s what a mom is all about!

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

10 weeks tomorrow!

I went back to work March 1, 2010. My first week back to work went well. I didn’t feel like I thought I would. I expected to feel like my heart was ripped from my chest or like I couldn’t go on with my life but surprisingly those feelings didn’t manifest. It did however feel weird and funny dropping KJ off to school the first day. Kevin and I both took him the first day. KJ of course didn’t have a clue as to what was happening so he was completely fine. He did cry as we were leaving but that was only because it was time for him to eat! LOL! We ended up putting him in a licensed home day care. I’m sure that is why I am so calm and peaceful during the day. I feel like he is in GREAT hands so I don’t worry about him at all. I know it wasn’t any thing but GOD that led me to Miss Renee. She is the sweetest lady I’ve ever met. She genuinely loves children and you can tell that she will treat him just like her own. Granted it costs A LOT more than what we were going to pay Miss Julia the peace of mind is priceless! I now know what people say when they say that you can’t put a price tag on your child’s safety and peace of mind!

KJ is doing great in daycare! I am so proud of my little man. I have noticed that he is maturing so much. He’s now taken an interest in Bentley. He follows her with his eyes as she walks around the room. She is still paying him no mind whatsoever. I’m thinking in a month or so when he starts to really move and be more vocal that Bentley will take a real interest in him. We recently purchased a Baby Einstein gym for him. The first day we let him play with it; of course he just laid there and looked. I think he was a little tired and not really feeling it. Yesterday when I put him on the floor, he was talking up a storm! It has an octopus that hangs in the center of the gym. KJ found his new friend! He kept talking to it and kicking his legs. He was having a really good time.


It’s amazing watching him grow and discover new things. He sleeps more through the night. Last night he was sleep by 9:30 ish and didn’t get up until a little after 3! His bedtime routine really helps! I don’t really rock him to sleep. I do however rock him and feed him a bottle after he gets his bath. That’s like our special time together. I look forward to it. I love just looking down at him while he eats. I am so in love with that boy!! He still isn’t drinking a complete 4 oz bottle yet but he is growing! I purchased him a cute little outfit the other week. Tell me why he wore it once and can’t wear it anymore!! Not only is it skin tight but they’re high waters now! My baby is growing like a weed.

We took KJ to church for the very first time on March 7, 2010. We attended a church that we had never been to before and it is also the home church of Miss Renee. We had a wonderful time. Kevin and I have been in search of a church home for quite some time and now with KJ it is important to the both of us that he is raised up in church. He slept the entire time and was really good. I might consider letting him go to the nursery on Sunday’s Renee works in there. I know she will take good care of him. Kevin and I plan on going back this Sunday as well. God is amazing!